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Aug. 11th, 2004 09:15 amY'know, I just realized, I'm sort of pathetic in a way.
Every time I try to write, or so anything that'll be shown to other people...I'm like "whoo yay". Then I read other fics...or friends of mine write a bunch of really good fics and everyone's like "Omg *worship*"...I just totally lose myself esteem. I get jealous, but not in an offensive (like OMG I HATE YOU) way, more of a "I suck compared to them" way. I probably should get out of it. But I've been like this forever. =\ I'm half-afraid to write any new fanfics, because I know they won't be as good as ones that have been posted...some recently, fresh in the readers' minds...meh. Why can't I be good at writing? Or anything, for that matter? x.x
Every time I try to write, or so anything that'll be shown to other people...I'm like "whoo yay". Then I read other fics...or friends of mine write a bunch of really good fics and everyone's like "Omg *worship*"...I just totally lose myself esteem. I get jealous, but not in an offensive (like OMG I HATE YOU) way, more of a "I suck compared to them" way. I probably should get out of it. But I've been like this forever. =\ I'm half-afraid to write any new fanfics, because I know they won't be as good as ones that have been posted...some recently, fresh in the readers' minds...meh. Why can't I be good at writing? Or anything, for that matter? x.x
