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Crappy night, barely slept, and it doesn't look like this morning's off to a good start, either.

I'd just go out and say "fuck it all", except the weather looks awful from here.

whyyyyyyyyy

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It looks like I'm done.

It's kind of funny.

...never thought it would really happen this way.

or maybe I did. mm. It's always been "what if"s.

EDIT: ...I wonder if it's worth waiting and hoping. I've always been let down. I don't know if I could handle that again.

EDIT 2: One try. And if it just ends up like it always does again, then I'll leave for good. I'm too stubborn. No, I'm too stupid. Three weeks--maybe five, if there's even anything to say then--I'm an idiot. I've always been an idiot. It looks like I'll be stretching it.

I never learn from the past, do I? Am I just setting myself up for what always happens?

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Family.

...I feel like making boxty again. Shame the supermarket by here closed and it's such a pain in the goddamned ass to make.